Sunday, June 20, 2010

How To Clear A Memory Card

alone forever now

She's tired of problems that you caused her mind
Tired of all those read in your freak show
Tired of being alone at night
Being the lowest on earth
cat \u0026lt;\u0026lt;Mando Diao - Gloria>>


ZOMG I feel LIKE A WOMAN ONE FREAK SHOW.
SO, AS I HAVE AN AFRO BLONDE ON THE HEAD!!


age, Sabrina still bugs me just as bad!
Is that even possible? The
somehow seems really not to like that I have something like friends, oh God, this child is so poor.
I just want her permanently a purely cut, really!
I felt leech omg.

LETS DANCE! PUT ON YOUR
Dadadadam RED SHOES AND THE DAAAAAAANCE BLUEEEEEEEEEES ...

Oah, all just sooo funny. D:

Thursday, June 17, 2010

Wath Das Mean With Metal Secc Sgcc

magnetic

I am drawn to you like a magnet
Even if I left, we would find each other again
I've touched you, I can never go back and that's just fine.
You are everything in the world to me
\u0026lt;\u0026lt;Kagamine Rin & Len - Magnetic>>


I would like to shed new light on the hitherto experienced.
I want that you can see what is going on beyond the reality in me.
Lately I dream a lot ... Usually it is
this matter that I fall, and end up paying to the water. However, not loud or as if I had a certain weight. As a spring or a petal I sink into the water and deeper, but I can not save, however. It's like a moment of perfect ease and perfect peace of mind - whether you feel so close to his death?
I'm in the water.
In my first dream, I can remember like it was yesterday, I was saved. I saw only deep eyes, probably green or blue - more green. The blonde hair was tangled in his face and he looked at me and just smiled at me and I knew that I would not drown. He had saved me.
first time I was dreaming the next different.
I dreamed I would fall into the sea to be pushed, or just stumble. In the end I was back in the water, but I was not saved. He was not there. I feel almost like longing when I think of him. The Nameless One. I long to see him again. Perhaps talking with him. We have never spoken. He wanted to talk to me, but I did not hear his voice, when we were under water.

Last night I dreamed again.
I dreamed of standing in a meadow.
The sun cast a warm light across the meadow, just as it rose, but it was a bit dark. The whole field seemed to consist of fire as the sun dipped it in their colors. Me too. I just stood there and looked at the sun. Then he was suddenly back. He stood behind me.
I sensed it and turned around.
He looked at me.
This time he was worried.
He put his hands on my shoulders.
I still feel the touch and she pinched me almost before the breath from sadness.
I miss that contact and this heat, his presence. I miss everything. And I did not even know.
I see him only in my dreams. I do not love him. How could they? All I know is that he is, and always watching over me. I always talk to him the need to ...
In this dream I wanted it too.
I tried to talk to him, but he has just seen me, shook my head and put his hand over his mouth, I indicated that I should close my eyes. I did.
a moment I was unsure whether he had hugged me, but when I close my eyes re-opened, he was gone.
And I was alone again.
The dream was too short and I stood there alone, while the sincere wish of my heart remained unfulfilled.

When will I see him again?

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

More Frequent Periods As I Get Older

Sunrise Comes Too Soon.

Cause the waiting might kill me
If I do not come over
Why does time move slowly
When I'm not with you
And the sunrise comes too soon.
\u0026lt;\u0026lt;Late Night Alumni - Sunrise Comes Too Soon>>



I like the fact that this still has no idea who I am. Thus
I will show hesitation at least a picture that expresses my mood and my own shows.
Somehow the moment is absolutely nothing more. By Sabrina
I have had now for several days no real contact and they blocked as I could, while my first Angelina said she would like Sabrina, I let them down. Did they not do so. Even Miriam at the moment seems uninterested in me and my friend pressured me to discuss our common future, that we should pull it together, that we should get engaged us ... I told him so many times that it is not easy and that I am sure not yet felt ready.
He always says that it would be due to my maturity. I am not made you to be among men or to ever have a friend ... I know that he does not think evil. But I just want to be what I want. Just as everyone wants it ... But ... I do not know. Why can not it?

It is almost pathetic to see how Sabrina is at once hard to come back to these things.
But ... it is probably too late.
She would have been so many times before to make an effort.
I've told her and she seems to understand only now.
I do not understand it.
How can you not only understand it when I say: "It is too late"?
it displaces about? Like everything else so far?
I sometimes get the feeling that she uses me only ...

Miriam hears me well to stop when I talk to her about Sabrina. Just for blasphemy, because it listens again.
But my problems are you even care ... Since I do not even think about it long.
Everything is destroyed.
I thought I could I rely on them ...
But ... She's sick, she has Borderline. I should move beyond that and can see.
I'm healthy, I must take her in his arms.

Deniz .... I would love to see them again.
We see maybe once a year, but to her I feel very connected. Even if it has its little problems ...
It is those who listen to me. You may be charged or sometimes behaves like an angry bear ...
But that's okay.
She is my angry bear.
I'm loving ...

Angelina and Frank ...
Well, I thought I would get to know now finally right ...
Now that Angelina Sabrina wanted to also behind, but there was again done something else.
Not that there's anything I came on.
does not do it.
But somehow I'm disappointed.
Did I do the right at all?

I would love to tell you so much more, but I do not know what ... I'm just really dirty. I will awake and go to sleep happy. I sleep and feel good. Only in sleep. Once again I'm awake the dream is over and done. Just gone. And already I'm back. It hurts to realize that way. But it is so. I can no longer hide me from more ... I also do not want to.
I want to go down in it, I feel sorry for yourself.
But I can not, I think it has to the others.
I can not let it fall.
but I may not be a bad friend.
I may yet anmeckern anyone.
but I can not at once no longer be as strong as I've ever done before ...
but I can not deprive them of their hope that everything will be all right.

you see me and think I can pick it up. I can, I can surprisingly good ...
But me begins no.
will end, I go down at some point.
I will drown.
I will not hold themselves. The others can save themselves maybe, maybe I'll tear it but also in death.
I do not know. When I think about it, I get a very bad conscience.
not against Sabrina, Angelina, Frank ... More towards Miriam, Denise and Daniel.
I do not know how to do the white ...
Please Help me someone.

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

How Come In Thrush In Men Thrush

Heart

A robot created by a lonely scientist
If you speak of his work, it's a "miracle"
But it was still incomplete, there was one thing that he did not make
It was the program called a [heart]
\u0026lt; \u0026lt;Kagamine Rin - Kokoro>>



Sun
Today I threatened my parents with the police.
I was afraid that they propose to cut off my Mom wanted to have their boots is how it went up and down the corridor.
My father has made it more complete and as my mother's voice almost broke, they went into the bedroom.
was then the basis for me unbearable, I heard every word.
I do not care if they fight. Should they kill it, but when my mother away ... what would my father do then? After all, he is very choleric and quite unstable. I do not know if he would do me.
I decided to go to the bedroom and got knocked against the door.
My hands - I still remember - have trembled animal, I have been threatened with the cops and the suicide.
My mother wanted to take me aside and put my mind, it is my "yes everything would be okay."
I've started to laugh hysterically.
My mother started to cry.
I leaned somewhere between the chair and table, I was cold, I laughed and hyper valve profiled further and squeezed out, that they should talk, should separate, to go into therapy. It was as if I had them throw up the words at his feet.
My father also came. My mother was crying.
I did not want their help.
My father went into the bedroom and cried there.
They wept for some time, I forbade them to enter my room.
I said they should talk - I do not know what is now.
I hear anything.
And all that came out of the quarrels of my parents that they had no money for cigarettes.
course it was there again also about the affair of my generator.
Really, when I think about it I could vomit at regular intervals.

I also have just learned of Miriam by SMS, that Saturday falls into the water.
Sabrina wants to meet Angelina alone.
not know what the reasons for ominous. Probably because I had no internet and just to just to upset was to sit at all on the PC. Miriam I had simply called shortly after the dispute and I was still crying.
Well.
If this really is the reason that one does not want to meet me - Please.
Then ... I find this anywhere really poor and then you can keep me stolen.
So much for "it is not bad, not to be online, which I do, too." Is not it? If you look einpisst why one has really a problem. Sorry that I have Real Life.
Anyway - Miriam had not told me know I would have been in Dusseldorf on Saturday like a fool.
good too.
\u0026lt;ironie>
Who Saturday Time?
All right, well, to kidnap me to rapen and then kill.
I'm tired. Oh, and the tests I have to no longer take notes.
\u0026lt;/ irony>